Today

So i shouldn't have started this off by days, because we all know life is hectic. Like today for example, my parents divorce is being finalized. Is it just court? NO! I was up at four trying to bargain with my mom to get off the phone with my dumb dad. Which was weird because i had just woken up from a dream where my dad had literally 'dropped dead' in our kitchen. I felt so bad having to tell my mom how useless he is, and how he is just not necessary to talk to, especially today. When she had told me she had been on the phone for two hours, it blew m mind. I mean can you imagine being a mom to your mother? standing in front of her, tears rolling down her face, telling her that her lover is an asshole. The man i just had a nightmare about. In this dream it's like my life was in turmoil because my daddy had died. Nobody knew what to do. In my dream i was just so upset. Then i woke up and was going to text my dad and tell him how much i loved him. But i had to go deal with the pounding. MY mom beating the walls and floor. Finally after i got her calmed down, i went to lay back down, and all i did was pray. I prayed for girls at me school, for my family, for my friends, for my life. I woke up. Realizing that i had actually fallen asleep. It was 7:30. My head was pounding. No way in hell i was going to be able to go through a day of school, let alone drag my ass outta bed and get ready for school in 10 minutes. So i got up took meds, and i laid down for an hour. I got up and went in town with my mom. She had court, and well... frankly my sister tens to be mean in the morning. Court went fine, and my mother did great. On the way home in the snow i started getting car sick. Because of the snow we were going 30 in a 55. FANTASTIC. After getting home all i did was lay down and watch little flurries fall from the sky. I love snow. I always have. It mesmorizes me. Oh, but the wind. It shakes my house. Makes me feel like sleeping all day. And with a headache, i am fine with that. But you see, i have this party this weekend. It would look bad to have a party but not go to school friday. It's a headache, it goes away. I could go and leave early. Or i could wake up and feel like.. amazing. I guess i will wake up and see how i feel. But for now? i will sit my butt on my bed and just stare out of my little portal in my wall.